I need to write, just don't know what...
'm going to write about a terrible feeling I went through
(why is it we ways document the bad feelings?)
anyways...
I was laying in my bed, after something that happened between us,
a fight, a dis-agreemant, a spat, I don't know what it was exactly,
but there I was, feelng "not there", and even worse "not with you".
It was the worst feeling i the world.
I know writing this is pointless, since I'm home again, just thought I should.

Want some good feelings???
I feel so amazing now...
the world is perfect...
I have you...
balance

I think...I feel...

I know I've been a pain the ass lately...
but I haven't been feeling too good...
I think I need help...
I think I'm sick...
I think I need medication...

I feel sad...
I feel lonely and alone...even though I know I'm not...
I feel confused...
I feel angry...at absolutely nothing...
I feel enraged at the un-fair situations I always get compramised in...
I feel everything and absolutely nothing...
I feel restless...no one spot is big enough to cotain me...
I feel trapped...
I feel lost...
I feel like I'm drowning...
I feel like I'm slipping away

The only good thing I'm feeling throughout this mess of emotions...is safe...
safe because I have you to wrap me in your arms and shower me with kisses...
safe because I know that you're there for me...

by the way...
here's another song I like...
(addicted: kelly clarckson)

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but youI'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting meIn my thoughts
In my dreamsYou've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you
I need a fixI can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this